Letting go

I spent the 4th of the July weekend in beautiful Ouray, CO.  For those of your who have never been there, it’s been dubbed the “Switzerland of America” and they do Independence Day up right.  From the parade and jet flyover to water fights between fireman and ending the night with gorgeous fireworks, it was a good weekend.

Eating out proved to be a little bit of a challenge but some of that was my fault in not wanting to try overly hard to find a place that would accommodate my needs so I kinda lived off of potato chips.  Yup, the picture of health!

This morning I woke up at 6am, about two hours before anyone else was stirring.  It gave me time to think.  This last month has been a hard one for me and I can’t really put my finger on what is going on.  I want to blame things like meds being off or the heat or just too much going on, and that might have something to do with it, but…I’m not sure.

I know I’ve been harboring bitterness in my heart and the more it festers, the more frustrated I get with life in general.  It builds and then explodes.  Not a good scenario at all.  So this morning I decided to just let it go, let the frustration and bitterness go because it’s not doing any good.  Not for me or anyone else.

Also, last night a lot caught up with me.  My mom and dad are visiting family in North Dakota and part of me wanted to be at the family picnic last night so badly.  I have relatives that have had health issues and you just never know when the last time might be.  I took a little walk, cried a bit, and went back to the festivities.  I love my family dearly and, as I age, I realize how precious that time is.  Time to not be wasted on bitterness or frustrated or regrets or anything like that.  You gotta just savor the moments, make memories and laugh a lot.

I saw this today and it is true.  I needed this weekend, even though there were rough patches, to clear my head and move past things:


Just take a moment

Life has been super hectic lately.  Between working 40 hours a week, starting a part time business with Arbonne, writing for the GJ Free Press, Gluten Free Grand Valley, Lions Club and spending time with family and friends along with other activities I’m sure I’ve forgotten…life has been crazy.  That’s why, when my friend Shawna asked if I would take a day trip to Ouray with her, I said yes.

I have a tendency to, even if there is nothing to do at home, find something to do.  I’m always connected via some form of technology and do have an issue with putting the phone down because what might happen on Facebook if I don’t check it every five minutes?  So, getting out of the house, out of town, was perfect.

It’s not that we had some sort of  “National Lampoons” type of trip (ok, there were men in speedos, queso for breakfast and yaks) but it was a great, relaxing day with one of my best friends, relaxation in the hot springs and laughter.  It was just what I needed.

Today, as I sat at work, I was reminded that we need to take those moments, break away from everything that is beckoning to us, all that says “I need to be done” and just throw caution to the wind.  All that needs to be done will still be there when we return…and if we don’t, it won’t matter anyway!