We don’t always get what we want

Today is one of those days where I want what I can’t have.  This doesn’t just apply to food but I’m going to write about that.  Tonight after work all I wanted was some Chinese food:  Kung Pao Chicken, fried rice, egg roll and crab rangoon.  Mmmm…my mouth is watering right now!  But I can’t just walk into a Chinese restaurant and order because ALL of that could harm me.  I’m sure some of you are thinking “well, just run to the grocery store” and while I can get Chinese food at City Market (frozen food), I can’t get the rest of the meal…sigh…being gluten free isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.  And, ok, I could make it but that would take more time than I’m willing to put into after a day of work.

It’s amazing the “little” things that I crave sometimes:  jalapeno poppers, KFC, real pizza.  I shouldn’t complain because it’s JUST food, right?  But sometimes having to watch every little thing you put in your mouth just plain sucks.  For example, I really wanted a brat and beer at Oktoberfest this past Saturday but not knowing what was in the brat, and knowing what was in the beer, put that out of my reach.

And it’s hard to explain that to people sometimes:  the cravings and the sadness at not being able to have what you USED to have.  It makes it harder trying to explain to them how just a TEENY bit can cause me a lot of damage.  It sometimes makes it hard to go out with friends since you have to smell their yummy food as they drink their beer.  I always wonder if it would have been better to be gluten free from the start so I wouldn’t know what it was missing.

The good part is that at least I know what hurts me and how to take care of it.  Some people aren’t so lucky.